Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Perception is Reality


Sadly I admit,
that your perception is reality,
albeit your reality,
but still reality.

If you see me a certain way,
that doesn't mean that
I am that mean person,
it just means that's how you see me.

I don't want you to see me that way;
I want you to know my intentions,
I want you to see both sides,
I want you to understand
who I am,
as I need
to be heard,
I need you to listen.

Perhaps as that youngest child
long ago
whose voice was unheard,
I need to find a way to be heard.

I need you to know
that I am working hard,
trying hard,
that my knowledge counts
as something.

I need you to see both sides.
Why is it that with you
my voice is like nails on a chalkboard.
Are you even listening?

You say your words--
You get up,
you leave,
you shut me off.

Maybe my approach
needs to change.
Maybe I need to let go of what I need.
Instead,
I need to listen.
I need to meet you where you are.
I need to understand your reality.

Now will you try to get mine?

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Forget it All


This time of year,
it's more than I can bear.
I can't keep up,
with all my stuff.
Too much work to do,
I am never through.
I am sinking in the grading abyss,
some things  I just miss.
Trying to climb out
In anguish I shout.
Sleep deprivation gets to my head.
Forget it all--I'm going to bed.